Today I discovered that an old friend decided to end our friendship. Granted, in this day and age, this type of breakup is initiated by changing one’s Facebook relationship. Sure you can Unfollow someone if you don’t want to Unfriend them. It’s very passive-aggressive because (as far as I know) the offending friend doesn’t know about it, but even in real life face-to-face relationships, there are people we must tolerate but simply Unfollowing them just means I am not subjected to their ramblings on my Newsfeed. It happened more often than I care to admit during and after the recent election, but sadly, now that everything has calmed down and (most of us) have resorted back to the usual snapshots of food, kittens, and gym memes, I cannot remember who I Unfollowed. My Facebook Newsfeed probably consists of the same 5 people’s posts because of this.
But really, I should be too busy to care. Facebook is an artificial means to be friends. And I suppose that could mean that friendships that are maintained in such a way are actually pretty fake because most people only put forth what they want others to see.
Perhaps the “real” stuff is saved for actual real face-to-face interaction, but to me friendships are no longer taken that seriously because I never know who is sincere. I realized when listening to gossip one day that I was probably once the main topic of discussion from this particular blabbermouth. In the grand scheme of things I shouldn’t care because at this point in my mid-40’s, my life is an open book and guess what? It’s not that interesting. However, when your supposed best friend is going through a divorce, I don’t want to know the details of what is going on. I’ve been there and it’s no one’s business, especially when you are the best friend who has been entrusted to listen and not tell the world. Quite honestly, it’s about as heartless as gossiping about someone’s death, because that is what divorce is. Death.
Anyway, in the artificial world of social media, Blocking someone is pretty serious. Maybe I’m basing this on my own standards because I only block those who are truly offensive to me. Even close friends who can sometimes be a bit off-color just get a quick scroll-through before I would even contemplate blocking them. I think to myself: “Yeah sure, they’re behaving like an asshole at the moment. But I’ve known them for X amount of years. I value our history and know he/she is a good person because of A, B, and C. This disagreement is not so huge that I would actually Block them.”
Well, I was either not that valuable of a friend or I behaved like such an asshole that I could no longer be tolerated. I will go with the former, perhaps to pad my ego a bit because I won’t lie, my feelings are a little hurt. Although, maybe this person was so used to me being sweet and agreeable that when a subject matter came up which I am passionate about forced me to take a stand and challenge her viewpoint, she was so taken aback by this that her only response was to drop me as a friend. She made no real effort to actually engage. Not that she had to. But apparently I hit a nerve. How dare I.
Oh well. I really like the person I’m becoming. If this ex-friend doesn’t recognize that (and she doesn’t… how could she when she is so consumed with her own thing), then she deserves to be a part of my not-that-interesting past rather than the craziness of the present and the celebration of things to come in the future.
Who is missing out? Certainly not me.